So today is the anniversary of my being single after my last serious relationship. A lot have reacted to me remembering the day I got dumped. How can I not forget that day? It was the first time in my life I have ever felt tremendous pain caused by a guy. It kinda left a big scar in my heart. But believe me when I say this that I have forgiven him already. I am even happy for him. He is with someone new now and they are pretty serious. And I know that he loves her more than he has ever loved me. I'll admit that the first time I found out about her, a month ago, I did feel a bit jealous especially when I saw their pictures together. It made me regret adding him on facebook.
He took her to places where I wish he would have taken me back when we were still together. She is everything that he wants for a girl. She is everything that he wants me to become. I figured that she is the "one" he's been looking for and I'm happy for him that he found her.
So how am I? How am I coping up with the life of being single. I guess the first few months had been difficult for me and I'm sure it was normal considering that I was very much in love back then. But after the mourning period and accepting that it was just not meant to be, everything has been quite okay ever since. I have tried dating again but it's not easy finding someone these days. Everyone tells me that I'm too picky. I would say that I'm just careful this time. I'm not looking for the tall, dark, handsome guy alright I just have certain qualities that i won't give up just because everyone thinks I am not getting any younger (the clock is ticking they would taunt me). I won't settle for someone just because I feel alone sometimes. I'll wait for the right person.
I have kept myself busy lately. Been involve with a lot of community service program and been climbing a lot. Recently I have joined Singles for Christ. I was a bit hesitant because I've been hearing a lot of unpleasant stuff about this community. I honestly told myself that I will just be joining the first talk of their Christian Life Program but I ended up loving it and up until now I have no regret joining at all. I've learned so many things about myself, about God, and about learning to love myself more. I can feel that I did change after the 5th talk. There had been questions about myself that only in this community I found the answers. I find myself more grateful and contented to the things that I have now. This building an intimate relationship with God really changed me to a much better person and I wish to continue this. Sure there are times that I have faltered but it's been great that my faith, my renewed faith to God has helped me deal with my problems much easier now. No longer do I run away. I am truly happy with what's been going on so far. I may feel lonely sometimes like when I eat by myself in a restaurant, or go jogging by myself, or go watch movies by myself, or go to the bookstore by myself but no longer does it worry me. Isn't that great? =D I have hope, peace, and love in my heart and I realize that's all I need.
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